What's new?

What's new you ask? O! A lot! ha ha.

Lets see...

Christmas with my family was great, and sadly it was my grandma's last Christmas with us. We made it a good one :). Travis and I went to Nashville for a Titans game the weekend of New Years. I experienced my first ever New Year's Eve bash in downtown Nashville. It was a lot of fun, but scary too. If you know me, you know I do not like crowds.... esp drunk crowds at night! It was a great trip and I can't wait to do it again this year.

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On February 19, it was a very very very hard day for my family. We had to sit there and say our final good byes to my grandmother as she went on the be with Jesus. She had been sick for a while and suffered from COPD. It was a very very hard thing to do because the love for my grandmother was overwhelming, she was loved by many and will be missed forever. I am sad to think that she will never meet my children and be a part of their lives, but I will be sure to tell them what a fire cracker she was :).

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 In March Travis and I celebrated 12 years as being a couple, we started dating March 6, 2001 when he asked me to be his girlfriend :) I can't believe it's been that long!! We were so young then :). I am so happy and grateful that God brought Travis to me.

and that about wraps it up :) Nothing else really happened that was big that I didn't post about already :)

Approved

So, I know it's been a while since I have wrote on this blog, but as of April 1 (I don't remember the exact date, so we will just go with April 1), we are officially approved foster parents!! Yay us :)

We haven't had a call for placement yet, BUT we did get a phone call the other day to keep 2 little girls over night for another foster couple (it's called Respite care). We didn't really want to do respite care, but we decided we couldn't pass up 2 little girls (age 2 and 5). It will give us some practice to keep other people's children besides Lillian & Jonah :). We are super excited and I know I am super nervous!

I am hopeful that this will open doors and other opportunities for us to become the best foster parents we can be and we can help out those children in the time they need us :)

May 1....

On May 1, 2012 at 12:00pm I got a phone call that I thought was going to forever change my life..

It changed my life alright, and at the time I didn't think it was for the good. I got the call saying that my Frozen Embryo Transfer we did with donor embryos was a negative. It was an awful day. I cried, in the public bathroom floor of a movie theater. Cried my eyes out. Gathered myself up and went about my life. We grieved, we prayed, and most importantly we didn't give up hope. 

We knew that God had a reason for that blood test to be negative. There was a reason we had to go through that heart ache. We do not know that reason yet, but I feel that soon God will show it to us. 

In the last year, we have grown so much as a couple and our faith in God. 

We would not be where we are today without that horrible phone call from my nurse that day. We would not be pursuing foster care (or even adoption) if I did end up pregnant and we would not be there for a child in need someday. 

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On May 1, 2013 the daycare that I work at had our first ever lock down that was not a drill. It was a scary day. There was a threat made to the Pre-K next door and since we are on the same campus, we had to undergo lock-down as well. The children were asleep during the whole thing, so it wasn't so bad at the time for them. Thinking about what could have happened was very scary. Those kids are my babies, the closest I have ever had to children. It is my job to protect them and their parents trust us to protect them. I can't even begin to think of how I would feel if something did actually happen. 

So far, May 1 (for the past 2 years) has not been a good day in my book! Maybe May 1, 2014 will be a much much better day! :)